Especially Ellis

Today I was thinking about what happened in life that makes me not care what other's think when it comes to opinion and I feel like people just think I'm heartless and don't care about people. I don't know if that's really what they think but thats the way I fell sometimes. I was thinking about my childhood and growing up, we were required to work hard for everything we ever had and got and it has made me appreciate everything I have, one of the hardest things we dealt with was never being able to build friendships like most people do while there young. Friendships are hard to build the older you get especially the one's  that are close and the ones I dream of all the time, the one's that you see all the time where you go hang out every week, those one's are the ones that don't come easily when your older. I have friends that have best friends they had when they were in preschool and they go out at least weekly and there married and most have familie...

Crazy year that is crazy fast with civil rights violation's if you're right and the go left and left and there is no right. Everything that has happened from left to right, top to bottom has been completely against everything our founding fathers have ever gone against and everything we have fought for over the years and even against slavery and racism that Martin Luther King fought against, history must be destroyed because they claim it's racist but it reality history isn't racist the times we're racist the history only reminds us of the story that had happened, destruction of it reminders will only cause us to repeat it but it goes even deeper than that! The destruction of history today has nothing to do with racism and everything to do with control, a few years before China became a communist country they destroyed everything that reminded the people of where they came from and what had been fought for, they had did this 1. To test the powers they had to see wha...

I can't believe that next week is Christmas! Another semester is over, another round of grades are in the books. Next semester will hopefully be my last until student teaching in August! I'm so excited to be so close to finishing my degree and earning my teaching certificate! I'm still praying and pondering about what comes after graduation. Brandon and I think we have a pretty good idea of what we will be doing and where we'll be living in the next few years, but we haven't yet figured out the details. So, more information on life after graduation will come over the next year or so..... I wanted to take a few minutes to reflect on how 2018 has been so far, seeing as there are only a couple of weeks left in the year. Then I'll share some of my goals for 2019. In January, I decided to focus on faith and relationships for the year. My faith has been on a roller coaster these past few years: sometimes it's strong, sometimes it's weak. I have had experie...

Sorry dear blog for ignoring you! I had a busy semester, but it's all done now!

I am a few weeks into the Spring Semester, so I thought I should finally write about it! Haha I am crazy so I decided to take 18 credits (6 classes) this semester: ED 100 Linguistics and Education MATH 212 Math for Elementary Teachers ENG 270 Creative Writing ED 201 Intro to Education ED 204 Children's Literature GEOG 101 World Geography I'm also serving as secretary for my church's children's program, so you can definitely say I'm busy!  Hopefully I'll be able to survive this semester. It's interesting, though. Even though I'm super-busy, I magically have time to get things done and actually feel like I have a social life. I'm forced to interact with people more on a daily basis. So I'm slowly becoming more friendly and coming out of my shell again. I experience seasonal depression plus I'm introverted so this is kind of a big deal for me. I can be social but it takes work and drains me. I really like my "me time" and n...

My sister recently wrote an awesome post about life as a curvy cutie and all of the emotional turmoil that often brings. You can check out her post here:  https://djslifestory.blogspot.com/2018/01/being-plus-size-woman-self-esteem.html    Her post was so awesome and thought-provoking, and I could relate to a lot of what she had to say! That's why I decided to write a short response to her post and share it with y'all. My sister wrote a lot about how being a curvy cutie affected her social life, how she dressed, and how she felt about herself. Despite her challenges, she finds different ways to rise above them and be comfortable being unique. She's developed a style all her own, and let me just tell you, sometimes I want to raid her closet! I want to be like Denali when I grow up. I too can relate to self-esteem issues related to my size. I've always been bigger, even when I've been more physically fit. Add shyness and quietness, and that makes it harder to make ...