Opinions don't matter. why I don't sugar coat

Today I was thinking about what happened in life that makes me not care what other's think when it comes to opinion and I feel like people just think I'm heartless and don't care about people. I don't know if that's really what they think but thats the way I fell sometimes. I was thinking about my childhood and growing up, we were required to work hard for everything we ever had and got and it has made me appreciate everything I have, one of the hardest things we dealt with was never being able to build friendships like most people do while there young. Friendships are hard to build the older you get especially the one's  that are close and the ones I dream of all the time, the one's that you see all the time where you go hang out every week, those one's are the ones that don't come easily when your older. I have friends that have best friends they had when they were in preschool and they go out at least weekly and there married and most have families to care for but they stay close and they become a part of each other's families on both sides of the friendships and they don't hide anything from each other,  that is one of the things I have always dreamed for and it makes me sad to see other's that live that dream. One of the reasons I was never able to build this dream is because we were never able to get to know anyone and all of our childhood friends were stolen from us when we moved from Anchorage to Kenai in 1999 and after that move we were isolated and every time we made friends it got stonewalled and we were never able to nurture those relationships and it has made me me today but it also left a permanent hole in my sole that I often find empty, how does this make me heartless when it comes to opinion? Mom always taught us to stand up for what we believe and for what's right and she always said that often and other things happened later in life where I was important for telling the truth and it made me opinionated and I'm vocal about it, I don't have a filter to shield your feelings and often times I don't care about your feelings and I believe its because of this life history of mine that has made everyone else's feelings less in value to me. I don't say that in the terms of knocking anyone down as in I don't value them at all, I just don't value sugar coating everything. I don't know how to filter my mouth for your feelings or opinions. I never had a best friend to talk to that would tell me I was to mean and it's why a lot of people don't like me and a lot of people do but in the end its the lack of that friendship that isn't there that would have filled that hole that is there. My best friends are my sisters, and now Tabitha but growing up I was close to my brother's and sisters for the longest time, we only had each other.  I still long for that hole of a true life long friend that most have today that I never had and will never have the chance to have. It makes me sad often 😢  I hope everyone that reads this really cherishs there friendships and hold them close,  especially your best friends. 

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2020 stay out of my bubble and you'll be just fine! and yes I'm always wrong!

Crazy year that is crazy fast with civil rights violation's if you're right and the go left and left and there is no right. Everything that has happened from left to right, top to bottom has been completely against everything our founding fathers have ever gone against and everything we have fought for over the years and even against slavery and racism that Martin Luther King fought against, history must be destroyed because they claim it's racist but it reality history isn't racist the times we're racist the history only reminds us of the story that had happened, destruction of it reminders will only cause us to repeat it but it goes even deeper than that! The destruction of history today has nothing to do with racism and everything to do with control, a few years before China became a communist country they destroyed everything that reminded the people of where they came from and what had been fought for, they had did this 1. To test the powers they had to see what they could get away with while not disrupting the everyday life of the citizens and shortly after the government took control, today we have a similar situation going on, good is evil and evil is good and if you stand up to it you are persecuted by those in control and in most cases lately even locked 🔐 up for defending yourself even on video and there is beyond reasonable doubt that they we're trying to kill you and disarm you and it was in total self defense but you are required to roll over and dig your own grave for them! War is coming! Let's not talk about the fake pandemic! Everyone in most everyplace is required to ware masks and stay 6 or more feet apart from each other for a so-called virus that has a better recovery rate that the common flue because people are to stupid to make there own decisions for themselves to keep them safe? Sorry to brake your heart but it's not my job to keep you safe from your own stupidity, it's my job to protect myself and my family and extended family! That's where it ends now on that note most of us will do what we can to protect our friends and there families but within reason! Forcing people to protect others over themselves is assanin at the least! For example I have a respirator mask that filters the air coming into my breathing area and I cannot ware it because it only protects myself! Some cities have made these mask's illegal because it don't protect you! Sorry but go protect yourself and get lost! Yes I said what people aren't brave enough to say! For now that's my rant! Like it, don't like it, I don't care! I'm a mechanic 😁 mechanics learn quick to not care what you think! Arm yourself, protect yourself! We will not do it for you! It's like telling my to change your undies because you craped in them and are a hazerd to yourself, do it yourself and stay out of my bubble and you will be just fine! 

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